What is anger?

And when is it ok to let anger control you? Lately I've been feeling more and more negative energy in my life, from drama with other people, to frustrations driving, to just being in a sour mood sometimes. Where does this all come from?

I think anger is a very important emotion, it can be an empowerment to people. But when your anger effects those around you in a negative way, then anger becomes a problem. Then what if your anger spreads to those around you, and they spread it, and numerous problems have been created for many people. This is a difficult thing to understand, especially when you are in the throws of anger. When something is bothering you, it's all you can think about. What if this anger creates other things in your life, more sources of anger. It seems like you've entered a downward spiral in your life. Its difficult to control. Am I falling down the spiral? I don't know, but I feel a lot of anger in my life recently.

How do you control it, when the mere presence of a person can anger you and ruin your vibe? Even if this person is deserving of anger, why do I let it get to me so much? Why do I continue the spread of negative energy? How can I let it go? I've already decided to train harder with that anger, but that so far hasn't abated it. It would be one thing if I could just battle this person and get it over with, but I truly don't feel I'm ready or even close to that level, and if I'm called out, I won't back down, but I don't have the confidence to make the first move. Sure that can be an underlying goal, but to dwell on something like this cannot be healthy.

What is it to hate someone? No one is perfect. Everyone has their flaws, everyone makes mistakes. Most people who do bad do not realize their folly. They are so caught up in themselves, they don't consider the ramifications to others. I also can be like this, but I do not want to be. Just because the negative energy has been directed at me can I be angry? On the other hand when someone attacks you just because they are stronger, and they need an out, and you are there, wouldn't you have the right to be upset?

What is forgiveness? Can you forgive someone when they are not sorry, or feel they've done nothing wrong? I'm not a very forgiving person. I feel people can change, but I don't think change is instant, and especially if someone doesn't try to make amends, how can I give forgiveness?

What is this post for? I dunno, trying to sort out my thoughts. I'm really tired of being angry, and that's not who I really am. I want to find a way to let it go in a positive way. I'm going to continue to work out my aggressions through dance, maybe some other options will make themselves be known. Although I really enjoy some things in the big city, some things really get to me, and don't help my situation. Maybe I need a vacation, I dunno. Things will get better tho.